Clear Skies

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The impending doom feeling that I had in my previous post has cleared.  The world is still spinning, I can hear children outside playing.  All is good from my perspective.  It really was a horrible feeling and I’m glad it’s gone.  In fact, my depression is much lower this week.  I still feel that underlying layer of depression that’s always there, but it’s not as noticeable.  It’s not overpowering my other feelings.  As a matter of fact, I feel damn good today.

The speech class I’m taking is going great.  I’ve been struggling with school since I started, but I’m grateful that I’m finally starting to do better.  We’ve had two tests so far and I got a “B” on each of them.  In addition, I did my first speech today and aced it.  This makes me feel more optimistic about taking a larger load this fall.  I feel my life moving forward like a country song played backwards.

Tomorrow I have a midterm exam and, of course, I am nervous about it, however, I’m nervous about every test I take.  It’s natural, I guess.

I hate to jinx it, but yesterday and today are the first good days I’ve felt, without being manic, in a long time.  I know that this feeling isn’t going to last forever, but I’m not going to let that bring me down.  I’m going to continue on and live my life to the fullest while it lasts.  I guess the only negative is that I’m having this good period at the same time as my exam.  Rather than getting out and enjoying it, I’ll be stuck at my desk studying  ’til later tonight.  Oh well, I have the rest of the week to enjoy it and I am planning on it.

 

  10 comments for “Clear Skies

  1. July 11, 2013 at 07:10

    Great to hear you’re feeling better! That means there’s hope for the rest of us! Best of luck on your midterm!

    • Bradley
      July 11, 2013 at 08:21

      Thank you, Michele. I may need the luck today.

  2. Rose
    July 11, 2013 at 06:31

    Best wishes to you on your school work. It sounds like you are doing well. I know the feeling of having good days and knowing they won’t last. The best thing you can do is stay in the moment and try not to predict the future. Easier said than done, I know, but just practice. 🙂 My best to you always! Rose

    • Bradley
      July 11, 2013 at 08:23

      Staying in the moment is such and easy concept, but so hard to do. Thank you for reminding me that that’ll be the best way to get through my day.

  3. Deb
    July 10, 2013 at 22:45

    That is great Brad! Good luck on your midterm!

    • Bradley
      July 10, 2013 at 23:12

      Thank you, Deb. I can use all the luck I can get.

  4. Connie Ordway
    July 10, 2013 at 18:43

    Good for you, Brad. Remember how many of us love you!

    • Bradley
      July 10, 2013 at 19:28

      Awwww. Wonderful to hear from you, Connie. You’re already missed

  5. Grace Hall
    July 10, 2013 at 17:43

    yay! so glad to hear you’re mood is better. <3

    • Bradley
      July 10, 2013 at 18:08

      Thank you, Grace. I’m glad too.

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