I’m becoming a big boy now. Becoming balanced again after all this time is like being born again (not in the religious sense…or maybe so). Anyway, things I couldn’t do because of my crazy mind are coming back to me.
Here’s what I should get gold stars for:
1. I cleaned the kitchen again last night.
2. I’ve been showering every day and taking care of my personal hygiene.
3. I started reading a book yesterday and am almost half way through it.
4. I’m working on a website and ran into some technical difficulties, as I mentioned yesterday. After freaking out for awhile I was finally able to calm down and find solutions for the problems.
These are all HUGE steps for me and it feels good getting life in order again, though I must admit it’s damn scary. I’m trying to enjoy my new found freedom without overdoing it, but that’s a toughie because I have to keep in constant check otherwise I won’t realize when I’m pushing myself too hard.
The one thing I am missing is my ability to write funny stuff. I don’t know what’s happened but even I have become bored with my most recent posts. From my perspective it validates that being crazy or on drugs makes a person more creative. I wonder if there’s been any serious studies about that.