If Only

If only I’d been kinder to Mom

If only I pursued my degree earlier

If only I’d kept my career with Marriott

If only I spent more time with my daughter

If only I could accept that people like me

If only I’d come out of the closet sooner

If only I’d had a good relation with Dad

If only I’d kept my weight off

If only I’d left an abusive relationship sooner

If only I’d kept my house in Scottsdale

If only I hadn’t spent my life’s savings

If only I could stop biting my nails

If only I hadn’t hurt my ex-wife

If only I had a drivers license

If only I had a car

If only I didn’t throw people away

If only I loved myself

If only I wasn’t an alcoholic

If only I had more hope

If only I wasn’t bipolar

  7 comments for “If Only

  1. May 24, 2013 at 03:25

    Bradley, you took some of these words right out of my mouth…now it is time for us to move into the future and all it holds. Thank you for sharing such a heartfelt post <3

    • May 24, 2013 at 09:04

      Agreed, Patti. Time to be in the moment and move forward. Reliving my past over and over again in my head is not going to help anyone – especially me. As my therapist always tells me, “that was the old undiagnosed, unm-edicated Brad,” now you get to choose what direction to take your life. He is wise.

  2. May 23, 2013 at 21:43

    This functions well as the beginning of a prayer …if only it leads to praise 🙂

  3. Rose
    May 23, 2013 at 16:36

    Thanks for stopping by my blog! I really enjoy what I see here. You have a unique voice in your writing and the honesty is appreciated. Keep doing what you’re doing!

    • May 23, 2013 at 23:29

      Glad you dropped by, Rose. And thank you for your kind words.

  4. May 23, 2013 at 11:01

    This touched me deeply. It’s hard to be that honest with yourself but you learn from it and move forward. From what I’ve read in your blog, your insight is keeping you true to yourself and to the people in your life. You are an inspiration to others. I enjoy your posts immensely.

    • May 23, 2013 at 14:02

      Thank you, Michele. I blog because I love it. The real icing on the cake is when others tell me they were touched by what they read or that they learned something.

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