I was running a bit manic in January so my pdoc changed my meds a bit, which you may have seen me whine about here. Today when I met with him he asked how it’s going and I told him that I think he needs to adjust my meds back because I’ve felt so drained and sluggish. Then I was an idiot and told him that Maurice says I’m doing much better and more stable. So who does he agree with? Maurice, of course.
As I’ve mentioned many times before, mania is usually a very bad place for me. I whir around the apartment starting numerous projects but can never finish any of them because I can’t focus on one thing for very long. But that wasn’t the case in January. It felt good. I liked the high. Unfortunately I screwed myself over by taking on too many things and that’s what sent the red flags flying that my pdoc saw.
Oh well, I guess living at a normal speed is the way it’s going to have to be, for now, but I don’t have to like it…and I don’t.