This is the city: Los Angeles, California. I Live Here. I’m a Nut.

Remember the tv show Dragnet? (Please don’t mention that awful Hanks/Akroyd movie). Well, I have some surprising news for you. The real power in Los Angeles is the Chamber of Commerce. If you no longer see me post it’s because I have been accosted for sharing the following information: Los Angeles is not all warm sunny days and palm lined streets. Shocking, I’m sure, but true.

Yesterday was one of those cold dreary days. Certainly you don’t read this blog for a weather report, but it’s pertinent because it made me on the depressed side again as I’ve said weather usually does.

I’m hypomanic. The laypersons definition of that would be that I am both depressed and manic at the same time. What a joy. I was able to get a lot of chores done. No, not the laundry, but I’ll spare the details. Yet at the same time was sad, down, edgy and irritable. Overall not one of my better days. (sigh) I love the manic states where I feel high as a kite like I can take on the world. I don’t like the depressive states but at least I stay in bed and may get some rest. This hypomania shit means I’m feeling like crap yet am too edgy to just lay low. Just hangin’ and being cool is a state law in California, so that is an even larger offense I’m breaking than telling the truth about L.A.

I’ve mentioned before that hypomania is not as common. Apparently most with mood disorders may be manic or depressed but not usually at the same time. Why the hell is it that all my unique qualities suck?

I posted that for the past week I’ve had weird sleep. I woke up every hour yet in the mornings I still pop right out of bed. I couldn’t figure it out because even though I was awake, some days I had a groggy feel. Then, I remembered some information that was rather important. When my doctor switched me to Abilify, which is a mood stabilizer that has less of an effect on weight, she mentioned it may make me too perky at night. Now the important part – she very flippantly said “If that happens just take it in the morning.” Ahem. Ok, I’m glad I finally thought of it now. It may be a part of what’s making me feel like crap. Any kind of a med change, including times I take them, give me an edgy feel for a bit.

So last night I had virtually no sleep, today I’m awake again, yet irritable and edgy. I hope everyone around me is safe.


  11 comments for “This is the city: Los Angeles, California. I Live Here. I’m a Nut.

  1. May 23, 2008 at 07:41

    Oh, I hate those hypomanic states, it’s the state I’ve been stuck in for some time now. Being plain manic is so much better, like you said, feeling high as a kite and all. I was telling my friend that I wish they could make me manic all the time, I’d get so much done and be so much more cheerful. But then, when I’m manic I only sleep an hour or two a night, so I probably couldn’t keep that up forever! Anyway, sorry to ramble on and on. You have a great day!Jane

  2. Michelle
    May 22, 2008 at 17:15

    There is nothing like the real deal!Michelle’s Dad and Renee’s husbandp.s. Thanks for listening and caring!

  3. Michelle
    May 22, 2008 at 12:59

    I’m coming to getcha.

  4. May 22, 2008 at 04:19

    Hey Sexy LA man! Breathe deeply and enjoy the fact that you got all those chores done – even if you are left with an edge. I need that kind of energy around my house – just for an afternoon ;)Happy Wednesday Bradley!

  5. Bipolar Wellness Writer
    May 21, 2008 at 20:31

    Bradley,If the weather affects you, then you should research Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD). I, too, live in Los Angeles and yesterday was only marginally different in my part of town. Anyway, there are numerous SAD sites. The true expert on this is Dr. Norman E. Rosenthal, and he’s got a site as well.Feel better.Susan

  6. Michelle
    May 21, 2008 at 18:40

    Hey I thought you were a fruit I must be on the wrong blog!the dad

  7. Michelle
    May 21, 2008 at 18:39

    I’m talking to a movie star! Thanks for listening Bradley.Your friend, Michelle’s Dad and Eileen’s and Adam’s and Patrick’s too

  8. May 21, 2008 at 20:45

    Oh, this kind of weather at one point my therapist and I kept referring to it as bipolar weather. I’ll stop rambling now…now, can you imagine if I were manic instead of depressed how much more I could write!! No, don’t!!! My brain might explode…not a pretty sight.

  9. May 21, 2008 at 20:43

    I don’t live in LA, but I live in Los Angeles County just the way you do. I know where Lomita is…are you scared? Nuts…no I did not call you. Anyway, I had to drive through Lomita to get my coffee at Peets then go to the medical buildings near the hospital to see my psychiatrist. The weather sucked and the day before I was wearing shorts and a tank top and way too hot!!! I can’t relate to what you feel too much, but I have days when I’m so irritable that I say I can’t stand to be with myself!!! Anyway, I found you via Shiv and enjoyed what you have to share. Thanks for taking a look at my site…hope it didn’t scare you too much. I’m really just a nut too. Sometimes, you feel like a nut…sometimes you don’t…I also remember Dragnet and a very young Harry Morgan. Oh, I live in Cerritos. Do you know where that is?

  10. May 21, 2008 at 19:30

    Adjusting to new meds can be a problem. Good luck with it.I’ve heard of some good results with Abilify.

  11. May 21, 2008 at 19:10

    LOL. I’m nutty,loony,crazy you name it…and yes a fruity in more ways that one.

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