Weekly Wrap-Up May 2, 2016

Weekly Wrap-up

Mood

Monday I felt l was getting better. More balanced. I was wrong. My depression worsened. On Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday I was in a very dark place. While I have been hit with depression dramatically longer, they aren’t as frequent as they use to be and therefore catch me off-guard. The positive is that I know they will pass. I know to just do the best I can until then. (Keeping that in mind is easier said than done when you are in the midst of it.)

Weight and Fitness

On Saturday, April 23 I weighed 263.2 lbs.

On Saturday, April 30 I weighed 264.2 lbs.

Total gain for the week: exactly 1.0 lb.

My goal for April was to lose 6 lbs. Instead I gained 2. Feeling very frustrated. I have committed myself to walk down the beach in the early mornings, just as I did when I lost a lot of weight a couple years ago. Now, I have to make a commitment to eat within my guidelines. That’s going to be more difficult.

Depression was the major factor, of course. When I’m depressed, I eat. Plain and simple.

Writing

For the first time since I began the novel, I’ve gone a week without writing. Not good. I’ve read many books on writing, including those by Janet Evanovich, Lawrence Block and Stephen King, and they all say the same thing – write every day no matter what even if it’s gibberish and needs to be tossed out the next day. In fact, King is insistent that any writer should be able to write a minimum of 2,000 words a day.

Synopsis

The week sucked. Have a nice day.

14 comments on Weekly Wrap-Up May 2, 2016

  1. So sorry you had such a crappy week! I’m so glad you realized that the depression would pass though – that shows how resilient you are just to be able to *think* that while in the depths of dog doo doo.

    You will start anew. I’m praying that this week is MUCH better for you – that you get some writing done, that you start eating healthy and because you’re hungry (not because of depression – believe me, I get that; that’s how I put on a ton of weight) and that the depression has lifted by now.

    Rooting for you, “Wondrous Writer”! 😉

    1. Thank you, dyane. I do feel like crap today, but I think I’m coming down with something. I hope it’s not depression. Funny how I hope I’m physically sick, but I think you get it. 🙂

  2. I like how you log your weekly moods. I should try that. I used to keep a journal until I discovered that I wrote the same thing every time I picked up the journal. Ten years of writing about the despair of depression was enough to make me want to give up. However, that’s when I recognized that it was time to seek some serious help.

    1. I’ve never been one for journaling, but posting this in my blog helps me. It may have taken ten years, but I’m glad it helped you get the help you needed.

  3. Sorry you had such a tough week. You’ll be back on track once you feel better. I’m glad you can remember that it is only temporary–hard as that is. Please be kind to yourself. The walks are a good start. You have cheering section here, Bradley. We’re all rooting for you.

    1. Monday was awfull, but yesterday I bounced back. it’s only 830 here, but I think it’s going to be a good Wednesday

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