What do I Want to do?

what do I want to do

What do I want to do? Over the years I’ve written a few posts about returning to work. In the past couple weeks, it’s come up again with my pdoc and my therapist, so I am bringing it up again. I hope my long term readers will indulge me a bit. Over the years there have been many things I’ve wanted to do – farmer, veterinarian, astronaut, actor, studio cameraman, fire fighter, painter, garbage collector, a writer, gardener, cartoonist, and the list goes on. Most of these were flights of fancy when I was a kid, but many carried on into adulthood. This is true especially of writing, or being a cartoonist.

My Options

I credit Doonesbury creator, Garry Trudeau, for my desire to be a cartoonist. I was a political junkie at an early age. Started in 1970, Doonesbury’s satire on politics, was not lost on this seven-year-old. If you’re not familiar with Doonesbury, you can go here to learn about it.

My dream of being a writer didn’t begin until high school after reading the classics, especially “Grapes of Wrath.” I too wanted to write the great American novel.

After graduating high school, I pursued both dreams. I bought a large drafting table for drawing. I can’t remember the name of the strip I created, I only remember the lead characters’ name was Marcus Newark, and most stories revolved around his working one job after another, and his many failed relationships. Marcus had a talking dog, much like Brian the dog, on Family Guy. I spent hours working on the cartoon, and looking back. I am quite pleased with the results. I didn’t pursue my desire to be a writer as diligently. I subscribed to Writer’s Digest magazine, and purchased the Writer’s Market book so I would know who to submit my writing to. The problem was that I never wrote anything to submit.

The concern with being a cartoonist, or a writer is I was scared to death. What would happen if my submissions were rejected? How would I possibly handle it? I allowed fear and anxiety to control my life.

What do I Want to do?

I’d forgotten about both pursuits until recently when I declared I am a writer. I don’t know why thirty years ago I worked harder to be a cartoonist than a writer and today I have a much stronger desire to have a novel published. Also, I’ve tossed my desire to write the great American novel out the window and decided to write something fun. I’ve decided to write a mystery novel. Well, that’s not true, being a mystery writer has chosen me. I began reading mysteries regularly and grew to love the genre. Before that I mostly read science fiction, but never took up a desire to write a Syfy.

So, as I’ve said many times, today I am a writer and am having more fun than I could possibly imagine. My therapist, pdoc, and I have all agreed that I should consider gettinga a more traditional job at a later point, but now it’s important to fulfill a major dream of mine once and for all.

  18 comments for “What do I Want to do?

  1. August 10, 2016 at 13:10

    Do what maintains your health, as long as you can afford to do so. We are both writers. Wonderful feeling, finding one’s calling.

    • Bradley
      August 10, 2016 at 14:49

      Yes, it is. I remember the rush I felt the first time I told someone I am a writer – and I believed it.

      • August 10, 2016 at 15:21

        We are writers! Pretty awesome, isn’t it!

        • Bradley
          August 10, 2016 at 16:41

          Awesome it is

  2. August 10, 2016 at 12:54

    Great plan! follow you dream 🙂

  3. August 10, 2016 at 06:42

    Keep pursuing your dream. If your blog post are anything to go by, my money’s on… you’ll succeed 🙂

    • Bradley
      August 10, 2016 at 08:46

      Thank you, Pieces. You brightened my day

  4. August 9, 2016 at 20:50

    I’ve recently begun this debate internally as well. I work in It… but I’d love to be a writer one day. One day. Follow your heart Bradley!

    • Bradley
      August 9, 2016 at 22:41

      If being a writer is what you want, OM, then I have no doubt you will be.

  5. August 9, 2016 at 17:12

    great blog

    • Bradley
      August 9, 2016 at 17:40

      Thanks Scuba

  6. August 9, 2016 at 10:00

    First things first, loving the new theme/layout/etc. It is so clean and sparkly and white, I just want to jump into it like a fresh pile of snow! I “get” wanting a traditional job — I often miss the daily interactions I had helping others, but I am still a very long way off mentally from being there. So, in the meantime, I run my little jewelry business and just try and keep my head above water. Whatever works for YOU!!! 🙂

    • Bradley
      August 9, 2016 at 10:05

      Glad you like the look. Yes, I’m not there yet for a traditional job yet, either. Writing works for me, and I’m glad you started a business that works for you.

  7. August 9, 2016 at 09:36

    I tottally agree that you should go for it now, while you can, as far as having fun writing!
    You’ll get to that more traditional job later…carpe diem, my friend!

    In the meantime, I must tell you yet again that you inspire me so much every week as you continue to write no matter what. You attend your writing group (which is SUPER-brave in my “book”!;), and you blog and work on your fitness program.

    p.s. I LOVE the new, revamped look of this site!!!!!!!!!

    • Bradley
      August 9, 2016 at 09:48

      Thank you, dyane. I always love your accolades. I know the odds are super low, but my goal is that through writing I don’t have to get a more traditional job. I know a couple of people who live off their writing, so why can’t I? Glad you love the new look, I do too.

  8. August 9, 2016 at 08:49

    The one that grabbed me first was cartoonist. You then went to elaborate more on it. I would love to see your work and indeed you will have my full support. 🙂

    • Bradley
      August 9, 2016 at 09:17

      Sure. I did some cartoons early on in the blog, but my art skills were virtually non-existent. I’ll either repost them, or more likely redraw them and post. It would be fun.

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