My visit with my 11 year old daughter this week has been amazing. We’ve had so much fun doing things, but most of our fun has been talking and laughing.
Today I reminded my little girl that tomorrow was the last day of my visit. She frowned, bowed her head and said “Oh no.” It made me sad and it brought a tear to my eye, yet, it also made me ecstatic to see how much she cared. Is it wrong when it feels good to make your child sad? As a long distance dad, the one thing I worry about most is her resenting me. I fear her believing I don’t love her. I fear she will lose touch with how much I care. It felt good to get a visual and vocal reminder of how much she does care and the funny thing is I don’t feel guilty about that. Probably a bit selfish on my part, but I’ll own it.
So tomorrow we’re off to a day at the zoo and then I’ll have to say goodbye to Sierra. I hope it’s not long before I can visit again.