As both of my readers may have noticed, I’m just not writing as much anymore. I’m sure that could be cause for a celebration, but I’m bummed out for the reason why. One, is that I am much busier these days, but the biggest part of the struggle is I’m just so damn (Yawn) sleepy and downright lethargic.
In the past I wouldn’t consider going a day without writing something and I’d get very frustrated when I had writer’s block. Nowadays I’m having what I would call thinker’s block.
My new meds are wonderful. They have me feeling balanced. I’m having no high swings and no deep lows. I feel emotionally better than I have in a long time and God knows what an emotional mess I have been. But……..zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. Oh sorry about nodding off like that. I was saying this sleepy, groggy side effect is one thing I just don’t like. Not one bit. My pdoc and I laughed and had a great time during my last visit because we thought we’d finally struck gold with the right combination, and I still feel we have, but do I…..zzzzzzzzzzzzz Sorry again, I have that problem a lot and now forget what I was going to say. Oh! I remember now…do I tell her that we’re not quite there? Do I tell her that the drowsiness is too much for me? Logically I know I should but dammit, I’m tired of med changes. This may be the closest I’ll get to being balanced with my meds and the idea of playing the med change game is not something I want to go back to.
OK, hell, I’ll tell her when I see her this Friday, but if she says we’re going to have to go back to the med puzzle I think I’ll scream if I’m not too tired to do so.
On another note, if you haven’t checked out my new directory, please do. It’s called Mental Health Blogging Directory and it’s one location to find a list of excellent blogs. I wish I had a widget for it, but the ones I keep creating don’t seem to work. (sigh). If you know anyone who knows how to make a widget….zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz