I have dual citizenship these days. Not only do I live in the state of California – I live in a state of confusion. Over a week ago my pdoc got the flu which led to pneumonia. During this time I ran out of several meds and made the mistake of waiting for her to come back to get my refills. Sure, I should have gone to the clinic and spoke with the doctor on duty, but I was stubborn and kept believing she’d be back in another day or two. Big mistake.
Fortunately, I’m not going into wild mood swings, but I am experiencing a lot of confusion and insecurity. I would be perfectly happy curling up in bed and hugging a pillow all day. I guess the good news is that I can keep myself from doing so these days. That wouldn’t have been possible before. The bad news is, this feeling sucks. I constantly feel like bugs are crawling up and down inside me (there’s a pleasant picture for you). I feel so insecure that I just want to hide from the world.
I’m back on my meds, but I have to go back on them slowly so it will probably take a week or so for them to kick in. In the meantime I’ll just have to deal with it and hopefully function okay in the process. Today, I’m not functioning all that well. Anything I set out to do, I get disoriented in the process.
For now, I’ll just have to hang on tight and wait this feeling out. It’s something I can do, but it makes it hard to get anything done in the interim. I’ll just have to hold on and do my best.
I lost the two pounds I gained and am back down to 283. This seems to be a magic number that my body seems to like. If I could just get below 280, I would feel like I made a major accomplishment. That’s going to take some motivation to move which is a little tougher than normal right now. I’ll just have to find the right attitude and perspective to look at it from and it should be easy to accomplish.
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