I’ve been so depressed it’s depressing. It hit on Monday and pretty much stayed with me throughout the week. It’s the worst I’ve had in a while.
Monday’s are always difficult even if I’m not depressed. Maurice and I talked and he suggests I need to stop working on Mondays. No writing, no dusting, no laundry, dishes, etc. Just veg. It doesn’t matter how much or how little I do on the weekend, there’s always some sort of interaction with people and that wears me out. Well, wears me out is not really the right term. Let’s say it exhausts me. Even if it’s not from being around people, my daily rituals are not the same which are equally exhausting. On the one hand, it would be nice to chill and watch some bad movies. On the other, I feel uneasy if I’m not working on my manuscript. You’d think after all these years that I’d learn to accept my limitations, but it’s still a constant battle.
I did go for a walk along the beach this morning. I’ll have to see how I feel later to determine what I’ll do. Moving forward it will be part of my daily routine.
Weight and Fitness
I’ve been so depressed it’s depressing. Wait. I think I’ve said that.
Weight on Sep 24: 261.6 lbs.
Because of other obligations, we missed another week of Weight Watchers so I didn’t get weighed again. I do know there are now some clothes that are too small for me to wear. The ones that do fit me, are pretty tight.
A little back story. My maximum weight was 303 lbs. Through Weight Watchers, and a lot of exercise, I lost 90 lbs. Unfortunately, that’s where I stayed awhile and eventually my weight obviously crept back up. Why did this happen? Because I stopped following the WW program and I stopped exercising. At this point I’m sick of it.
My primary exercise when I was losing before was walking. Walking along the beach five days a week to be precise. I’ve decided since it worked back then, then it should work now. Getting to walk along the beach was a great motivator. My hope is that my morning walks will not only help me lose weight, but will also help keep my depression in check.
One more time… I’ve been so depressed it’s depressing.
Because of the depression I got very little written. I did get some editing done, but overall, not so much.
Depression sucked. Weight sucked. Writing sucked. Hands down an E for the week.