Slowly Killing Your Soul – Throwback

killing your soul


Today’s Throwback is from August 25, 2008



merger, analysis, consult,
dividends, recruitment, associates,
implementation, strategic planning,
productivity, restructure, outcome,
negotiate, long-term, exemption,
directive, recruit, gross, net,
operational, recession, shareholders….
lap tops, cell phones, i phones, Blackberries, raspberries, snozberries….

All the above summarizes what I saw and heard at the airport on my trip home last week. Mostly from stressed, angry looking people wearing expensive suits. I use to be one of them.


My Day

6:00am Walk up in the morning and grab a cup of coffee
7:30am Begin work, drink 2 pots of coffee, return phone calls and emails and work on presentation.
12:00n Have lunch with co-workers and talk business the entire time
1:00pm Return from lunch and head to a meeting
2:30pm Back at the desk to return a dozen phone calls and an equal number of emails.
3:30pm Another afternoon meeting
5:00pm Back at desk to return a dozen phone calls and an equal number of emails.
6:00pm Resume completing paperwork.
7:00pm Head home


Those were typically my days. Too many are living it right now. Some probably look at that and think I had it easy. One of the few benefits having a mood disorder is that it got me out of that corporate environment. It was hell being there. Sure, I got to travel to exciting places, I had the big office and the fancy title. I managed a large region. I felt I was important, and I was to the company. I was just like all those stressed out drones at the airport. Important: yes. Fulfilled: no.

And the sad thing was that I really wasn’t important. Sure, the job I did was important to the corporation, but if I left, which I did, the corporation would keep operating. If the corporation shut down, which it hasn’t, the world would keep spinning.

I had a friend who is active in the film and television industry. She is close friends with numerous celebrities. I asked her once why so many stars end up dying from suicide and drug overdose. Her response was, “Because they have it all. At least they think they do.” She went on to explain that they’ve acquired all there is to acquire, they’ve achieved fame, etc. and they then look around and ask “Is this all there is?” She said her belief is that’s why they feel so hollow inside. I think that is true for many people. Even if they don’t physically die, they allow themselves to die inside.

That was me. I’m happy to be finding myself again.

2 comments on Slowly Killing Your Soul – Throwback

    1. Me too, Anthony. Reading this post again made me see things from an entirely different perspective.

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