Before you read my post, I must remind you that there are only a couple of days left to get your questions in. Uncle Bradley’s Words of Wisdom will be back this Friday as always.
If you’ve been a regular reader of my blog you know I have issues with showering or bathing. I’m either too depressed to drag my ass into the shower or so manic that the idea of standing in one place while water sprays on me is just too monotonous and overwhelming at the same time.
Today I took a shower. It’s not as big a deal anymore since my meds have me feeling more balanced, but I took it one step further. I actually cleaned the bathroom.
I must be honest here. Our house is not the cleanest place on earth. Maurice works long, grueling hours with his job and my head is spinning too much to take the time to clean. On top of that, the bathroom has always been a place I despise cleaning. But today I decided to defeat that ugly monster.
With a mop in one hand and a toilet brush in the other, I marched straight in there. The sink growled at me, the toilet laughed at me and the shower looked at me with evil in its eyes. I was not intimidated. Within an hour the creature was cleaned shiny and bright.
Usually with bipolar disorder it’s a good idea to have consistency, so I’ve created a schedule for myself. After breakfast and showering each day I do the following:
Monday – Laundry
Tuesday – Bathroom
Wednesday – Kitchen
Thursday – Laundry
Friday – Living room and Bedroom
After each of those I get back to a website I’m designing and work from 12n – 6pm.
This entire consistency thing is kind of scary even though I allow myself flexibility, but it’s one step closer to getting out and living a normal life again. You’d think that’d be exciting, but it’s actually damned frightening.