One of the worst weeks in long while. The depression was a massive dark hole. In many ways it felt like the worst I’ve ever had, but logically I know it’s far from it. It only felt like the worst because I’ve been mostly stable for awhile. Maurice and I went to our regular Weight Watchers meeting Saturday morning and I completely zoned out. Later we went to the beach and walked several miles. I’d be dishonest if I said the depression went away, but it did put a major dent in it.
Right now I feel good. I was even singing while making breakfast. (Maurice hates it when I sing in the morning-he’s not a morning person at all.) That’s one of the positives of being a rapid cycler. It may mean depression will come more often, but you also know the depressions not going to last as long. One week was long enough for me.
Weight and Fitness
I neither gained or lost weight over the past week, which is surprising considering my depression. Current weight is 262.2 lbs. Because of the depression, I ate less than usual so I expected to drop. Thursday and Friday, however my hunger came back with a strong sweet tooth. Had I gotten some exercise during the week, I probably would have gotten a good drop, but that was the last thing on my mind.
My weight when I first joined Weight Watchers was 303.4 for a total loss of 41.2 lbs.
My April goal is to lose 6 lbs., so I will need to lose 1.5 lbs each week.
I did go to the new writers group to check it out. The woman who put it together was very nice, but I won’t be going back. I’m not in the space to be helping a group get off the ground. It takes time and effort. Since I’m happy with my regular Saturday morning group I see no reason to add on another. It was worth checking out, though.
I expected to be working on Chapter 7 this past week, but with the horrible mood, I’m still on Chapter 6. Worked on it a little, but not as much as I would have liked.
A bad week all around. I have high expectations that this week will be much better. Considering my optimism, I’d say my depressive state is pretty much gone.