Its been four days since the election results came in and I’m finding myself more depressed. Each day I feel more depressed. The Republican party has gone nuts since the Tea Party and the Evangelical’s took over, but this is not just about my party losing. It’s the man. This video is of the man who will be President mocking a reporter with a chronic disability. The reporter he’s mocking is Serge F. Kovaleski, who has a congenital condition that involves contraction of the joints in his body
This act alone should have ended his political career, yet it’s one year later and he’s heading to the White House. It sickens me.
I’ve loved my country, yet I find myself becoming more and more disloyal and I don’t give a damn. I just want out of here. I don’t want to abandon my country, I feel my country has abandoned me. I owe it nothing.
I’m still being told to stay and fight, but I just don’t have it in me. I’ve been fighting one thing or another my whole life. I’m exhausted.I don’t think I care enough to fight.
Maurice and I are still considering moving. We’ve received a generous offer to live with a friend for free at his home in Altea Alicante Spain. I’ve never heard of it, but this place looks beautiful.
If we do leave, which is unsure, we may end up there permanently. Then again, maybe not. Maybe it would be just for a few months, though I don’t think that’s enough.
My words may not be as profound as I’ve read on many blogs this week, but I’m not trying to write a thesis. I make no apologies for just feeling the need to share what’s going on in my head.
I’m angry, I’m exhausted, I’m afraid, and I’m bitter. I don’t know when these feelings will go away, but I don’t think they ever will if I remain here.