Apparently I’m in a melancholy mood this morning, because these are all questions that ran through my mind as I walked to the coffee shop this morning. So, today is my day to not be as light hearted as normal.
Why is it I can be in the best mood, but when the wind blows in my eyes, and the tears start to roll down, I will start feeling sad?
Why is it that the gates of my apartment complex were almost always left open until three men were gunned down two weeks ago across the street? Why do I know that they will start being blocked open regularly in about a month? Why do we never learn from our mistakes?
Why do my neighbors turn their heads away when I walk by and barely mumble when I say “good morning”?
Why is it that I’m over 100 pounds overweight but my glucose is normal and my cholesterol is low? However, potassium, which is normally considered healthy, registers dangerously high for me?
Why is it when I called the health clinic they told me the earliest they could get me in to see my regular doctor would be next Friday, but when I told them it was an urgent situation and I could see anyone they told me it’d be next Saturday?
Why is it that Maurice and I worked with other volunteers to get same gender marriage legalized in California, yet now that it is legal we can’t marry because it would seriously affect my benefits?