Generally speaking I’m not a fan of astrology. I guess I’m too cynical. Despite my disbelief, I have to admit my sign describes me with amazing accuracy. I’m a Libra and the symbol for Libras is the scale. Primarily the scale represents our sign because we are always seeking balance and are not very good at it. Bipolar and trying to seeking balance? I wonder what percentage of those who are bipolar are Libras. It’s a natural combination.
A few weeks back I posted an article titled “Time Mismanagement” where I lamented my inability to manage my time effectively and the impact it’s having on my life. My current obligations are my Philosophy class, my Political Science class, some volunteer work, maintaining my blog and keeping it up to date, study time for school and much more. It’s not going well.
I’ve cut way back on the volunteer work, but I’m still struggling. My grades in both of my classes are hurting badly and this blog is being negatively impacted. I know, I know, I should have listened to both my pdoc and my therapist and only taken one class, but now I’m stuck with the two I chose. Unfortunately, withdrawing from one of them is not an option because I have too many class withdrawals on my record. As a result I am on academic probation. If I withdraw from one of them, I will be suspended. For now, I’ll have to keep plugging away and hopefully turn things around. Both professors are difficult so this semester is going to be a struggle.
As for this blog, it’s being negatively impacted too. I try to post an article at least three times a week and lately I’m struggling to even get two out. I waver between having writer’s block and having anxiety attacks when I try to write. Oh sure, I could put the blog on the shelf right now and focus more on schooling, but the problem with that is blogging is my oasis. It’s my time with myself to focus on something I love to do and I believe no matter how busy we humans get, we must allow ourselves play time. By the way, for those of you who have blogs I read on a regular basis, I apologize for not stopping in lately. It’s nothing personal. I currently am having a difficult time reading so I haven’t been reading anyone’s blog in a while. I hope that changes to. I miss them, and will get back to enjoying other blogs as soon as possible.
I’m not exactly sure what to do at this point. More meditation may help. I could focus on mindfulness as well. I will be interviewing a mindfulness trainer later this week for an upcoming article. Maybe I can get some pointers from her. Whatever I do this has to change, I refuse to accept that I can’t take two classes and write a blog without killing myself in the process. I’m seeking balance in my life and I just haven’t figured it out yet. Any suggestions?