Like anyone in life, somedays I seem like a complete genius and other days I seem like a complete idiot. Since I’ve been running on three hours of sleep I’m sure you can imagine what I’m looking like these days.
I’m happy to say I did not wake up this morning at 3am, but the sad part is because that’s the time I went to bed. I had a beautiful nights sleep right up until 6am when I was wide awake again and feeling refreshed. I’ve never been one to wake up feeling refreshed so this is pretty cool. My body doesn’t seem to think so because it’s not long before things suddenly change. Ever have a day where you drank 10 gallons of Mountain Dew every hour? Me neither, but I sure as hell can tell you what it feels like. My beautiful, young, 44 year old hands won’t stop shaking. It’s hard to type these days. Seeing is not much better. I keep joking that Grandpa needs to put on his spectacles, but glasses wouldn’t really help. My eyes just want their blankets to stay closed for one full night.
I’ve mentioned the strange thing about all this. I LOVE it. Mania feels so good to me. I’m actually getting a lot accomplished. I feel like Superman sometimes. Actually, let’s say Spiderman. He’s much sexier. Even when I’m not getting much accomplished I feel like I am.
Yesterday at church I worked the patio during social hour, chatting it up and being the belle of the ball. I really was – just ask me. Reality is that my speach was going at warp speed. As always in this situation, it suddenly reaches the point where the sound and the crowd becomes maddening and I have to run for shelter. I found a nice bench in the garden where I shook like one of those ugly chihauhas (my apologies to all you chihauha lovers out there).
OK. So I know I should call my pdoc. It all started after a med change and I’m sure this is not the effect I’m suppose to have. But I know she’ll tell me to stop taking it and I DON’T WANT TO!!! Today is a holiday in the U.S. so I am happy that I have an excuse there. Then my meeting is Thursday. Since tomorrow is Tuesday, it seems silly to call when I only have to wait two more days…doesn’t it? Come on, doesn’t it?