When I look back on my earliest posts 7 – 8 years ago I notice a couple of things. First, I notice how dramatically better my writing is today compared to back then. I guess writing for 8 years helps one to hone their craft. The second thing I noticed that bothers me more than a little bit, is that I seem to have lost my funny.
Now I don’t know if I ever found my blog all that funny, but I had a good number of people tell me that they followed because of the humor, despite not being affected by mental illness. It doesn’t make sense to me. In 2008 I was a mental, emotional, and physical mess. I was newly diagnosed and my mind was spinning as we tried med after med after med to see which ones worked and which ones didn’t help me. How could I go through that, one of the most miserable times in my life, and write funny stuff? Why today, when I am dramatically more stable, is it so difficult for me to write humor? Some psychologists believe they have an answer.
In an August, 2014 Psychology Today article, Diana Raab Ph.D. had this to say about Robin Williams,
While he was making the world around him laugh, he was hurting inside. It is an interesting phenomenon that those who are the funniest on the outside are so often the ones hurting most on the inside. When used on a regular basis, can humor be considered a mask for internal demons? Some say yes, but humor may also be considered a coping mechanism, allowing the depressed individual to function. Having a sense of humor also has its rewards because it places the focus on others or on a specific situation or set of circumstances. When our focus turns outward, we can avoid the pain of turning in and so it can be seen as an escape from one’s own problems.
This does make sense. Many use humor as a coping mechanism and I’m sure it helped me at the time. One odd thing, though, is that I am able to write humor these days. The novel I’m writing has lots of humor which is validated by fellow writers. Why am I able to write funny stuff in my novel, but not in this blog? I haven’t a clue. The last thing I want is for my blog to be dry and boring. I don’t think it is, but I want to be sure that doesn’t happen.
I don’t have any expectation that I be funny every day. I wasn’t funny every day back then. But, I’d sure love to be funny more often. I don’t want this just for you, my readers, but for me as well. There’s nothing I love more than to laugh and I am thrilled when I can pass it on to others. I’ll have to seriously look into this problem of being too serious.
I’m looking for more funny blogs. Preferably related to mental health, but open to all. Any suggestions? I need some laughs.