I just got home from Weight Watchers and once again I’m not happy. I gained another 2.8 lbs. I’m now at a total of 58 lbs. lost. Sounds great except at one point I was at 90 lbs. total lost. (sigh) You may recall that I gave all my bigger clothes to Goodwill and had bought inexpensive […]
Good to be Back
Where the hell have I been? Good question. I’ve been busy juggling the various aspects of my life and not doing a very good job of it. It’s been odd not having read or written any blog articles for a couple of weeks. It’s good to be back. Well kinda. An update regarding my depression. […]
Sick and Tired
It’s been a difficult ride lately. I’ve been sharing for a long time now that I’ve been dealing with depr3ssion. I mean, yeah, I live with it daily, but it’s been beating me beyond normal wear and tear. I met with my therapist on Wednesday and we discussed this. He was surprised that I have been unsuccessful getting my […]
Wednesday’s Quote: Elizabeth Wurtzel
“That’s the thing I want to make clear about depression: It’s got nothing at all to do with life. In the course of life, there is sadness and pain and sorror, all of which, in their right time and season, are normal—unpleasant, but normal. Depression is an altogether different zone because it involves a complete […]
Gain a Few, Lose a Few
(sigh) Another frustrating weigh in on Saturday. I knew the scale was not going to be my friend. It practically growled at me when I walked in the door. I’d made a decision, beforehand, that I was not going to get weighed. My tighter clothing told me it was not going to be pretty. I […]
School
No posts from me so far this week and that frustrates me. As I mentioned in previous posts, I’m currently following the advice of my pdoc and am taking only one course this fall. I was angry at him and myself. It turns out it was a good decision. I’m taking English 101 and I’m […]
Fifty
Tomorrow (Saturday Sept 28) is my fiftieth birthday. Yep, the big Five-O. I didn’t think it was going to bother me, but I’m shocked that I was wrong. All week I’ve been irritable. It didn’t bother me when I turned thirty. It didn’t bother me when I turned 40. Interestingly, it did bother me […]
Wednesday’s Quote: Sadie Turner
“People often say “Just look for the silver lining.” But what do you say to the person surrounded by fog? They don’t see a fluffy object in the sky, blocking the sun for a moment or two. But instead, they see everything as it was before, but through the murky, un-clarity of hopelessness. As if […]
Neat and Tidy
Our apartment will never be featured in Better Homes & Gardens. Maurice works long hours and I am terrible at housework. It’s all or nothing for me. I try to keep the place tidy, but, once it gets a little messy, I start to feel overwhelmed and let it go. This goes on and on […]
Wednesday’s Quote: D.D. Barant
“I’ve got a bad case of the 3:00 am guilts – you know, when you lie in bed awake and replay all those things you didn’t do right? Because, as we all know, nothing solves insomnia like a nice warm glass of regret, depression and self-loathing.” – D.D. Barant, Dying Bites